springtime delay

ok. the weather had been much better the previous few days. today was kind of dreary. now it's drizzling. i know spring cannot be to far away. the weekend just flew by. the work week goes by much slower. i'm very busy at work. that makes the time go quicker. i did get some studio time on sunday afternoon. i made three easter cards, one for each of my aunts. 

i got a lot of photos scanned this weekend too. i can't believe how many photos of my sister there are. none of me. not in the box i'm going through. scanning these photos have got me a bit down. photos of all my sisters birthday parties (with cakes) and all of her friends. photos of my sister here, there and every where, especially with my mom. in many they are dressed a like. photos of my sister, mom & grandma even in front of niagara falls. the whole family (before i came along) at the wisconsin dells. all photos of things i didn't do with my family. the way i've heard it is that by the time i came along (my sister was 11 and i was a "whoops"), they had already done all of those things families do together, so they weren't about to do them again for my sake. that's why i visit all of those places now - BECAUSE I CAN. i can do it all now. if i wanted a birthday party, i'd have that too. i guess my parents did the best they knew how to do, but they weren't the greatest at it. my childhood could've been much worse. i'm always envious of kids i see at walt disney world with their parents. would i be different if i had those experiences? i would think so, but i cannot possibly imagine how. maybe i'd be more outgoing? more adventurous. i don't really know. you can't miss experiences if you have no basis for them. maybe that's why it bothers me more now than it did before, because i'm finally getting to experience those things. better late than never i guess.